THE EVER RETURNING

Dec 8, 2017Dec 8, 2017 / allnightscorruption / Leave a comment

My mornings are .. a living nightmare.

Every single morning I wake up with some pretty intense anxiety. I have been given pills to deal with this which are diazepam and they do tend to work .. a little over half of the time.

There are so many things I am now worried about that just has this damned anxiety .. run riot. It does occur at other times of the day on occasion. But I am so busy during the day that I do not think it gets much of a chance to set in?

This is because I am either watching children, as I am right now and two this time, or taking people somewhere.

Because of all this I also forget to do things, which I used to do even living on my own. This .. memory loss also causes my anxiety to flare up.

This is very likely because there is so much responsibility on everyone’s shoulders these days and with that and just as another excuse to get more money so many punishments and fines. You would think that the anxiety would remind you but that is not always the case.

I spend most of my time .. away from my things. All my usual things as well as important things and the things I sometimes need to do .. important things.

Sudden changes in routine, things needing to be done and local schools, or at least one, that sends you a letter home with less than 24 hours notice to requiring something. I believe that school is either run by idiots or the authorities are all idiots for not forcing the school or schools on the Wirral to give more notice to parents. Most hilarious is when it is something that requires spending money when many families here are struggling and then some.

But I digress.

The anxiety I have is .. terrible.

I think I have explained before that at one point it was so bad it caused something they call Fibromyalgia Rubber Legs where the signals from the brain to the legs literally start to shut down.

When this occurs it starts of like an odd feeling .. when it happened about a year back I noticed my legs slowed down. I was in a seated position and already in the throws of anxiety and my knees were swinging in and out due to the anxiety. Then I noticed they slowed down and eventually were moving at a snail’s pace. This was odd because .. well it felt in my head, if that makes sense, that they were still working the same speed that they had been. I literally thought for a moment I was losing my mind. Well I was .. kinda.

I turned to the friend who I had been visiting and said “My legs .. are not working properly!” and he gave me a strange look. Yeah .. it must have sounded very weird. I stood up and I felt wobbly. The weird thing was that my friend was a Type 1 diabetic, well whatever number the bad one is, and I felt like he sometimes looked when his sugar was low. I was swaying a little.

Back then I did not go anywhere without a walking stick and I was panicking a little about what was happening to me. I told my friend I needed to go home and turned down the offer of a lift in his car. I thought that trying to walk might ease whatever it was that was now happening to me? But .. no.

God knows what I looked like to others and I was self-conscious about this, only because I know the look that diabetics get when their sugar is low. People naturally assume they are drunk.

People naturally assume a lot of things .. and get it wrong.

I phoned ‘111’, I never ring ‘999’, and explained the symptoms to them and they sent someone round and they could not find the problem and later I got a call from my GP of the time, who booked me in for the next morning. In the evening things calmed down but I decided to go and have a look online and after some searching I found the Fibromyalgia Rubber Legs thing.

I told the Doctor the next morning, who had no idea himself what was going on, and it was yet another time I discovered the answer before a professional did.

Now at the time I had told both people I saw and my friend that I had never experienced this before but later realised I was wrong on that one.

It had indeed occurred once before a very, very long time ago and it moved my onset of Fibromyalgia to many years earlier than I had even started asking about it. The year was roughly 1991 and it was kinda caused over a bout of anxiety over a woman. Oddly and despite living 250 miles away from the place where it occurred in Hertford, East Herts, the woman in question now only lives a few miles away. I never told her and we broke up over twenty years ago now.

So my Fibromyalgia definitely goes back to 1991 .. and I had been asking about it after it started to affect my feet, which was around 2001. I self-diagnosed this condition of Fibromyalgia around 2013 .. then after some resistance and lies had it confirmed at Guy’s Hospital around 2013-14. Well I was posting on here when I discovered it so it can be checked.

Oddly enough it was a little later on by about a year or two after the first Rubber Legs event that the first symptoms started to occur. Tiredness and even the first feelings of being depressed and I remember being prescribed Prothiaden.

The Doctors I saw would have been more than a dozen over the years even for just the General Practitioner’s alone. I was under GP Surgeries in three separate location just in Walthamstow alone and the Forest Road Medical Centre I probably saw close to ten GP’s. I distinctly recall three separate black GP’s at this same practice, an Arab GP, another two east Asian .. at least two women GP’s one Indian and one .. Portuguese. There may well be others I have forgotten over the years? That is eight under one practice just to give an example.

I have had five GP practices just in Enfield, my last one had three GP’s .. the one before that had two, a father and son, and the one before that I saw .. three I think? Before that it was a single GP practice. Before that one was a large multi GP practice and this one I saw .. four I think, though might have been more?

That is at least twenty one separate General Practitioner’s over twenty years and this does not include locums, hospital Doctors or Specialists.

Chase Farm Hospital I saw .. several. At Barnet I saw two .. in one appointment .. I know I have been there two other times but I cannot recall what for. North Middlesex Hospital I have seen at least three. Whipps Cross Hospital I probably see the most Doctors and specialists as I lived there on and off from around 1986 until 2007. Saw a Rheumatologist there, my first for my feet around 2003 .. ish? I dunno but the letter from that is on here .. somewhere. Two endoscopies that were years apart both at Whipps Cross Hospital the diagnosis of each look to be wrong, by a GP’s own suspicion and comments about it around 2011 to 2012. Might have been a little earlier?

So you see it runs into the dozens .. even regarding my back I had several people.

The funny thing was I wanted all of the symptoms dealt with at once as it seemed obvious to me ll along that they must all be caused by the exact same thing? But this was NOT the attitude of Doctors and the NHS at the time or indeed .. now. I was also told a couple of times it was not possible that these symptoms could be caused by the same thing.

Wrong answers, wrong diagnosis and lies, the latter being discovered much later, was all I got from the NHS for over twenty years. An attitude that was to leave me open to attack fro others, refused help and support from others and actually aggravate my condition. Causing ever more frequent and intense pain, ever more frequent and intense anxiety and now to the point my blood pressure is though the roof, I have had hundreds of grey-outs and worse and now complications with my chest and heart.

So after all that the government, with successive ones causing my condition to worsen, now want to stand behind me with the proverbial whip to get me to work. Well if is the right work and I get help doing it and left with more money to be able to run the car I need to work .. great. But they are not and have even taken money away from me, living component at the present time but want me to work. Yeah .. maths, dear people .. MATHS!

I have carried that and many other things on my shoulders for years.

I have been in some dark places and am even in one right now .. which may turn out to be the worst one of all, now down to the same attitude only with someone else as well as me!

Only this person does things I would not only find impossible but doe to the absolute sheer incompetence in failing to spot my illnesses but other potentially fatal ones I may have to do it. But I have no idea how I will do it!

When I started this blog I explained the attitudes and the issues I had and I told everyone what these were and what was wrong. I also made a bunch of predictions too and among these is that people would die.

I predicted that cutting the mental health sufferers off would even cause a rise in deaths.

I predicted that the NHS would cause a rise in deaths.

I should have predicted that the Police’s attitude would cause a rise in deaths and maybe I even did?

I predicted that the DWP would cause a rise in deaths.

I predicted that the Local Councils would cause a rise in deaths.

It is bloody annoying that I did not realise it before but this particular change in numbers due to deaths is even capitalised on by the government to make their numbers and their record look good! Now you cannot get more evil than that now, can you?

Take the numbers of people that have died and make those numbers look to the public as if they are doing a good job?! Your bonkers if you think they do not know they are doing it and fecking amoral if you have no problem with that.

Many of my predictions have come true and with every day, week and month that passes more are reported on all the time. Most not in the mainstream media mind you. But that is another story I have covered over and over again.

So it was with both sadness and anger that I heard about a young woman called Averil Hart. A young lady who died of a heart attack who was anorexic. She was failed by the NHS and this time in Norfolk I the east of England.

According to the news media the PHSO, or Parliamentary Health Services Ombudsman, stated that she was ‘failed by every NHS body’.

Wow! Just .. fucking .. WOW! The PHSO actually do something .. too late just like everyone else.

My advice to the poor girl’s family is beware of the PHSO as like all ombudsman they are there for damage limitation, despite us paying for them too!

I know this to be true because after I got recordings of Doctors and Specialists lying and falsifying test results I went through the bullshit procedures only there as a time-wasting exercise and they took up my complaint. I got letters and compliment slips along with a couple of emails off them for almost two years. One day it occurred to me that they had been quiet for several months so I contacted them. This is how it went ..

PHSO: Who are you we have no record of your complaint
ME: What?! But you have been contacting me for nearly two years about this!
PHSO: No, we have no record of you, we checked again (no RECORD do not forget)
ME: Well I have records of someone from you contacting me (gave them his name I think was Jonathan White)
PHSO: We have no record of a Jonathan White ever working for the PHSO
ME: Well that’s funny .. if your going to intend to lie to members of the public do not put your staff member’s name in your email address
PHSO: (silence and never hear from again)

So yeah .. do not trust them. But then I have learnt that you cannot trust anyone.

Also on searching for the BBC report of this shocking story I discovered something else I have been predicting for a long time too.

The first sign that other nations are started to notice things about the UK? I have a link from a website in India. I must admit that this is not something that I have really researched to see who is saying what about the UK.

Two people here with disabilities and responsible for four children, two autistic, and each of us never want to wake up in the morning at times .. and I mean ‘ever’ wake up.

Meanwhile I am under this stupid system where I need to remember to call my GP Surgery at 8am for an appointment to avoid being forced to wait two weeks. Did that for my first appointment despite it being potentially serious and still is.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-essex-42267778

I also said that eventually the bad news will spread to other nations who will start to look at the UK and ask awkward questions.

I wonder how many have possibly paid for advice from UK organisations that have claimed for years they are something they are not?

http://theasiatimes.in/anorexic-student-averil-hart-failed-by-every-nhs-body/

THE TYPICAL TIMING

Jun 5, 2016 / allnightscorruption / Leave a comment

Good God!

I finally received a parcel containing vape juices I was waiting for yesterday.

I managed to finally get out to a market that was not actually on, limping all the way to the first bus bloody stop to do it too!

When I finally got home I enjoyed my new juices and for once got a 100% success rate with more than one flavour juice in a single purchase.

I now have Loaded Glazed Donuts, by Ruthless, and thanks to Kav at the London Vape Co for directing me towards that one. It is the best donut juice I have had by some way.

I also ordered something else I had wondered about previously and wanted to try for some time now called Cloud Batter, by Cloud Vapory. Weird … just looked at the bottle and cannot find the flavour name but it is the one with vanilla in it. It is also 95% VG, I am told nothing is ever completely 100%VG, and listed as ‘competition grade’.

The Cloud Batter is very nice but it is a subtle flavour. I have been vaping it on my Velocity dripper, not good for tanks apparently, on my Snow Wolf 200W. Seems to have a sweet spot between around 35W and 60W. The doughnut juice I have in a Kangertech Top Tank Nano.

So there I am, back indoors and ended up wasting another day anyway when all of s sudden I got this sharp stinging pain in my throat and wondered what in the hell it was. I also noticed that the juice flavour was fading in and out.

About an hour later I realised what it was.

Typically after getting two very nice vape juices I have contracted flu, from a friend of mine who turned out to have a cold no doubt? What is annoying is this is the first time in about two years, maybe longer, I have had it. Had to be now?!

It is Sunday today, thee weather has been crap for getting out on my bike, taking photos, doing some filming and tomorrow is going to have sunshine for the first time in weeks. My first ever proper doughnut tasting vape juice. And I have the God damn Flu!

You could not plan things so badly if you tried!

I also forgot about that email I spotted last night from the PHSO.

I very simply cannot believe that they actually contacted me and requested I remove their emails from my blog? Something to hide, much?

I also do not think that they realise that there is actually several … groups higher up the chain than they are and I have one I have to contact. I had to wait until the PHSO came to naught and then contact them as it would not be sensible to do so beforehand.

I have also been contacted by one other organisation regarding this but will not divulge this here just yet. Well not much to say right now but I will get in contact with some details about the contents of this blog, the fact that the PHSO requested I remove stuff, after taking to years and conveniently losing all the files I gave them.

It things do develop into actions then I will give out what information I can, in other words what is sensible to do so when the time comes.

Damn it! I hope this flu works through quickly and is not one that lingers for days or weeks?! I really, really do not need this right now.

Will end up being stuck indoors doing nothing more than waiting for two hospital appointment letters I am really not looking forward to!

On appointment is going to lead onto something that is going be involve an extremely uncomfortable and very embarrassing test.

That test could end up academic if they find something really bad from a scan I have to do which is not a problem to do. It is just the outcome that could be … unpleasant.

Ooh and I just remembered. I was told yesterday that there had been some sort of trouble, riots or protests oing on in France that apparently has been totally ignored by the big British news networks.

Oh wow? Ignored by the British news networks? Yeah like that has never happened before?! Lol.

I need to go and look this up.

THE FIRST EVER REQUEST

Jun 4, 2016Jun 4, 2016 / allnightscorruption / Leave a comment

For the very first time … EVER I have had a public service … lol, sorry i always laugh at the word ‘service’, and had a request that an email be removed from my blog!

Odd as I never thought it would come from them, more likely the Police or the NHS. The request came via email, only just see it, and it sounds like they just discovered it.

But they were looking!

I wonder who it was that told them?

So someone somewhere had said something and this is the most animated the PHSO have been since I first went to them two while years ago!

I’ve had three separate GP’s since I contacted them!

Also it is, or should be, apparent to everyone that the PHSO have taken almost the same amount of time that is given by law for the Statute of Limitation for legal proceedings for a legal case such as this!

What does that tell you about both their efficiency and their professionalism? Pretty bad things, that is what.

You might not that I’m more or less blackmailed the email? They are stating that if I don’t remove the email they will not work on the case they have not worked upon in the two years since I first complained?

Obviously they think I’m a complete idiot and a brain dead sucker.

Remove it? Umm no!

Instead here is the email I mentioned they sent me and my response.

Remember this is your taxes at work … ahem, sorry these are your taxes being paid to do nothing, help guide the truth and drag things on beyond the Statute Of Limitations which in this instance is the years.

Which only applies to private individuals, I might add, and not big organisations not corporations.

EMAILS …

Dear Mr Haswell, it has come to our notice that you have posted an email from us to you on your blog site at:http://asaintcalledallnights.blogspot.co.uk/2016/05/the-final-countdown.html. We would be grateful if you would remove it.

The legislation surrounding our work requires us to investigate in private and we may not be able to correspond with you further unless you remove our correspondence from your site.

Thank you.

Best wishes

Sara Wilcox

Head of Digital Communications

Parliamentary and Health Service Ombudsman

T: 0300 061 3924 or 07479510949

E: sara.wilcox@ombudsman.org.uk

W: www.ombudsman.org.uk

Watch our short animations to find out how we deal with complaints

Dear Sara Wilcox

First off you have not investigated a damn thing and I came to you 2 years ago.

In that time you did nothing and when I contacted you recently your organisation knew nothing about me or my case. You want even aware the name of the person I was in correspondence with.

I’m afraid that your request just shows that you have something to hide. I, however, do not.

Also your making a request to someone who contacted you with the belief that you would do nothing. Someone, I might add, that if you checked more of my blog, stated this from the outset in each and every public service I ever dealt with, including you.

So your request is somewhat puzzling.

I might also tell you that no less than five local councils, two Police Forces, the DWP, the NHS and many others with all their associated ombudsman are all aware of my blog. A phonecall from the NHS to a previous GP fit my removed from their registry.

Hardly a big deal as I knew they had lied to me several times already.

Two GP’s previous to that one admitted to me the tricks the NHS pulls on GP Surgeries and that got me wondering what in the hell all these governing bodies and ombudsman are doing?

You all have me your answers.

Despite every single public body I investigated, which I’m will within my rights to do, you are the only one that had had the balls to request that something be removed.

I must admit that I always knew someone would request something removed, even threatened with being taken to court. I didn’t expect it to be you.

Would this have something to do with the fact your name suggests your linked to parliament and the government thinks it can do whatever the hell out wants?

Martin Haswell BSc

EDIT:

I now see they contacted me sometime ago telling me I’ve bit sent them enough stuff. Well it was enough two years ago when the first member of staff that subsequently vanished along with my files?!

Email …

Dear Mr Heswell

We sent you an email on 12 May 2016 asking for further information in relation to your complaint, in order to assess your complaint fully.

When we receive a complaint, we need to check that it is ready for us. Part of this is checking that the organisation has had an opportunity to respond to all of the issues you raised with them. This is called local resolution. If local resolution has not been completed we are unable to look at your complaint further at that time.

We note that to date, we have not received the required information. We have checked through the correspondence received from yourself, and note there is insufficient specific information for us to be able to proceed with the assessment at this time. If you are able to provide the information requested, including copies of the final responses from the organisations you wish to complain about, we will be able to assess your complaint for you.

This does not mean that we are not willing to look at your complaint. If once local resolution has been completed, if you remain dissatisfied with the final response, you can ask us to look at your complaint at this time.

Yours sincerely

Casework Assessment Team

Parliamentary and Health Service Ombudsman

T: 0345 015 4033

E: phso.enquiries@ombudsman.org.uk

W: www.ombudsman.org.uk

THE FINAL COUNTDOWN

May 12, 2016May 13, 2016 / allnightscorruption / Leave a comment

Bear with me …

As I mentioned posting videos on YouTube, and I just remembered one is waiting to publish, in in a lot of pain and still am.

That’s around twelve hours or more and reach time there is respite and I think it’s over not ten minutes passes and it kicks off again. One of those where you just want to die at certain intervals enduring ask this!

Anyway I noticed, while I’m in a respite period, that I have an email from the Parliamentary Health Services Ombudsman. What have they asked?

Oh only the details of who, what, where which as many of you know and it’s published on this blog as and when I did it and to who!

Yes they have asked yet again and I had forgotten all about the PHSO! But then I’ve memory problems and expected nothing to come from it at all, something else o stated from day one!

Anyway here is the email requesting the information from me yet again and once again me giving out to them.

After this is finally over there is one organisation left to contact and it’s over that deals with every single one of them!

Guess what I predict they will do? Lmao!

Emails …

Dear Ian Conroy

Fitting that I did this email after 14 bits of intense pain.

Well your answer is quite convenient, is it not? If your incapable of handling complaints regarding the NHS then please say it.

Firstly I’ve given you the specific names and details of which there are several.

Secondly you should be able to work it out from what I’ve provided … two years ago.

Thirdly … I’ve been trying to find out who is to blame, who is controlling the Doctors to lie, and if I had done so I would have contacted them directly.

Fourth, and this is the best one, the only plausible explanation for your organisation to take as long as it has is so that you take me beyond the Statute of Limitations which I know because I’ve been siding to several solicitors and I have a year left.

Dr Gubbay of Abernethy House Surgery for lying about my condition, lying about drugs, calling me mad, then a liar and then being in denial and in a sarcastic and patronising tone refusing to listen to a tape where I prove myself correct in that …

Darren Francis of Chase Farm Hospital who falsified an ultrasound test result saying I don’t have an Inguinal Hernia and the black lump that was causing me pain. As STATED fit the umpteenth time … ON TAPE. ALSO ON THE INTERNET!

Plus whoever intercepted the letter from Dr Kirkham at Guys Hospital removing the test he did on my right knee, that it caused pain and proved positive to a physical problem to said knee. Also for removing the prescribing of Pregabalin.

So after keeping my condition from me for a number of years the exact number I’ve not worked out, to a condition I’ve been asking about for 15 years and had twenty years in still no closer to getting Pregabalin, Milnacipran and Sodium oxybate.

PLEASE NOTE: I’m a scientist in SEVERAL FIELDS which, luckily enough for you and the NHS dues not include medicine.

However the Bachelor of Science Single Honours Degree I was awarded and the Distinction for my thesis does prove that I am more than capable of solving complex issues.

Except of course when I’m dealing with public services that think they’re really smart at being corrupt but in fact only still exist because the legal system had been deliberately gimped over the last decade.

They aren’t, however, smart enough to realise how powerful the Internet can be and that every inaction, lie, document, x-ray and recording I post makes every single organisation I come into contact with look just as corrupt as the last.

In the time since this complaint started I am now heading for 500,000 viewers and within a year this will be rising at a rate of 30,000 to 50,000 each month.

Despite any thoughts to the adversity I might have encountered …. well I have encountered none. I have had no one disagree with me, let alone prove me wrong and in fact quite the opposite.

It would appear that from this and a number of recent discussions gave to face with the general public everyone knows it is corrupt and everywhere you look to!

Until they came across me or my blog they simply did not know how.

Oh and if you think, or any of you, that my claims were anything other than the truth, like the sciences I’m skilled in. Don’t worry as I’ve didn’t the last 3 years plus proving this beyond any shadow of a doubt on the Internet too!

In fact when I started I said the following …

Watch me as I run down every single avenue and no one anywhere does a single thing and had no intention of doing anything and I’ll prove it.

I said a few other things too about contacting public services of all kinds, including no less than five local councils and two Police Forces and all the associated Ombudsman.

Those other things were to do with the conversation we have all had and points out how I prove everyone is corrupt.

It’s very, very obvious and right under everyone’s noses. A simple pointing out of the fact, or more accurately … inaction, and it’s as plain as the noses on everyone’s faces.

So I’m not surprised that you have once again asked for information I’ve already provided several times in the last two years.

You’ve also acted exactly as I predicted two years ago in doing nothing, despite the serious nature of the complaints.

You now need only worry about two things …

An I telling the truth in how a note very rapidly growing public are perceiving you and other government offices and public services along with …

What the hell else did he predict to everyone online over the years ago and just how damning is it.

Oh and I’ve worked in the law industry, albeit briefly and good luck looking into that one! So yeah, I know a few things.

Bit I’m also wise as well as scientific and possess and unusual amount of common sense along with deductive powers.

I started out on a five year plan to show everyone the truth. I’m not even quite four years into it but it seems I’ve acquired more interest in this time than the New Testament did year longer than I’ve been doing this.

Whether you decide to actually do something out not with what I have given you is entirely up to you.

You will only fulfill my predictions anyway.

I will tell you one single little detail in the many that have changed. I have that take I mention about and a letter on my file starting the ultrasound of my entire groin was clear? Leaving to one side I had an Inguinal Hernia on the left and painful black lump on the right, repaired side.

I thought I would actually have to pay for a couple of private Doctors to price what I said?

Well it seems I don’t because I’ve a letter here that clearly states I have an Inguinal Hernia!

Toodles!

Martin Haswell BSc

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Dear Mr Haswell

Thank you for sending your complaint to us. I am now in the process of assessing your complaint to establish if we can assist you further.

I can see that you have several concerns. In order for me to consider these, I do need more specific information from you. This is namely:

· the individual organisation you wish to complain about (e.g. particular hospitals, GP surgery, dentist);

· what your specific complaint is about that organisation;

· what your specific injustice is (how you have been effected by what happened);

· if you have completed their complaints procedure; and,

· if you have a final response from the organisation.

I appreciate your complaint is about ‘The NHS’, however the NHS is made up of various individual organisations which is why we need to be specific about which organisation you wish to complain about. Once I receive this information, I will assess it accordingly and respond as such.

For ease, please complete the table below with the required information.

Please return this information to me by 3 June 2016. If I do not receive this information by then, I will make an assessment based on the information that I currently have to hand, which may mean your complaint is closed until further information is received.

Yours sincerely

Ian Conroy

Specific element of complaint

Organisation / individual this is about

Injustice Caused

Have you followed their complaints procedure?

Do you have the final response? – if so, please attach

Ian Conroy

Caseworker

Parliamentary and Health Service Ombudsman

T: 0300 061 4609

E: ian.conroy@ombudsman.org.uk