I think I may have to type this one out in two sittings?

We are a funny species.

The things that we do and the things that we want to do along with what we think others should do makes us do an say the funniest and at times the most hurtful of things.

Many years ago I had to write out a eulogy, or at least part of it and I ended up writing all of it.

This was for y father’s funeral who had been paraded on TV as a master villain by the BBC less than a year earlier but failed to stop over 500 people appearing at his funeral so much so that the chapel had to break its rules and allow a crowd three people deep up on the platform around the coffin.

Stabbing in the dark in desperation while blindfolded is never a good idea.

I wrote the eulogy from the deepest depths I could find. It struck a chord with every single person in the room and was designed to do so. It was also designed to get messages across about our faults and failings and attempt to change people. For the better.

To this day I have not ha much sign that it worked. That on its own does not sound like much.

However, if I told you that the humanist, I think called, stuttered and started while reading it because he wondered where it was going and that after he finished he place the writings in my hand and squeezed it, stating that he had never heard anything quite like it, it may mean a bit more.

If I then explained that dozens of people commented on the eulogy throughout the wake and had asked me for copes of it … well I think now you may be getting the idea of how disappointing it was that I did not see much signs that it sank in.

I did, however, get more of a sign that people take a lot more notice of reading my words rather than hearing my words, well at least hearing them from me at any rate.

Christmas just gone did not go as I had planned, thought or hoped that it would and in many more ways than just one.

I was not where I thought I would be and I am still in the dark as to why this is and what was supposed to transpire was delayed until after Christmas. Well it is now after Christmas but I sense it will be a few days into the new year if at all.

Remaining here in London was going to be tough and challenges would be rife in remaining here and that stems from the fact that I am still here. Hmm, hard to explain right now but I will within a couple of weeks.

Then there are the usual challenges associated with getting over a Christmas and these possibilities were one reason I really did not want to be here at all.

Still, there was the possibility that all would be well. It wasn’t.

Christmas Day evening started out with a disagreement I had, had with the same person at least twice before, though I was led to believe it was three times by one person. This was over me buying something and that I was told that I should use reviews by reporters in a magazine despite the fact that not only I but at least two other people had told him over 15 years that at best these people are paid money to write this stuff and at worst, paid money to state specific stuff.

What makes this argument far worse is that he would argue over my method for choosing to buy something. This something was a personal music player, a high resolution music player and headphones. He gets into all the technical stuff without fully understanding it and forgets regularly that everyone has different tastes. For instance my present sset of headphones are RHA T10’s and he quoted What Hifi Magazine as stating that their bass is too much and over powers other frequencies. I told him that was complete bullshit as I had used them for almost a year, do not like much bass and that a friend had listened to them and stated that they are not “bassey enough”.

You cannot just go in and listen to headphones, you can some but not all all due to some threat of ear infections widely held to be stupid by every single person I have ever spoken to about it. Including on-line. So what is left to do, especially when headphones can cost in excess of a few thousand pounds?

Now I myself read as many reviews as I can fro people who actually bought the things your looking to buy. What I do also like to do is take the average marks out of five for an item that has had several hundred reviews. If two people give reviews and one gives five and one gives one out of five then the overall mark is 2.5 out of 5. Simple maths. If there are 200 reviews plus and the items gets four out of five overall this is an undeniable score. Unless your the person who is telling me I cannot use this method as its extremely unreliable and instead should use the word of one or two people who are paid to say shit and everyone knows it, except him who has been told repeatedly over 15 years.

His base, pardon the pun, for his argument when I tell him its mathematics based and you cannot argue with it? You can get several hundred idiots all writing those reviews. SIGH.

I decided to stop the disagreement, picked up my tablet PC and looked to see what was being published about the next series of Doctor Who!

Well a slight, old and boring disagreement and not the one I thought I would have.

Boxing Day involved more people being added to the mix. One person tried to get out of coming but was kind of emotionally blackmailed to turn up.

I chatted to one for half an hour about computers and computer games and all seemed well.

He tried to update someone’s laptop to Windows 10 and had been thwarted a few times and asked if I could attempt it. The laptop was being stubborn so I used the download tool to do it and it was taken a lifetime to do but was at least installing this time.

I found myself on my own in the room with just one older person and five others had disappeared though I was so engrossed in not letting this laptop and Windows 10 beat me I had barely noticed.

Then I heard a shout .. a single and solitary word and looked up.

I wondered what this was, then told myself I must have imagined it and refocused on the laptop.

Then I heard more shouting, a whole sentence this time along with some heavy footsteps and then “we are ****ing going!”

The person stormed into the living room said something about something having being said to them and I replied “who?” It was not the person I expected to hear I had a disagreement with the night before. Odd as they were intending to have a few words with the previously argumentative one about being … well argumentative and his stagnated life.

The stagnation has gone on for well over 5 years, possibly 8, and does not possess the tools to be argumentative. They do not possess any of the tools that are a compulsory requirement for being argumentative. Something else they fail to realise.

Also you need to be in a damned good position to be argumentative and with the necessary experience. Something else seriously lacking though you would doubt this if you heard them.


There I was sitting there quietly, I had avoided a subject I knew would cause and argument between me and someone else and successfully never brought up the subject. It was … once and I cut that off with a one word answer … “NO”.

Suddenly the other combatant was in the room. Followed by the others.

I remained quiet, uninvolved and sat behind the laptop before me as words were now being turned into weapons interspersed with accusations and insinuations at full volume going from left to right and back again. Oooh boy!

As the words went back and forth I eventually started to realise some of the faults we have as human beings when it comes to communication.

We somehow believe that we are heard more and are proved more correct the higher the volume is that we communicate. I realised how ridiculous I must have looked when I used to be like this, something I learned many years ago not to do.

The flapping of arms like birds must help the sound waves to go faster and penetrate the body of their opponents?

I remained quiet.

I did not want to be there. I also wanted to leave. I was still sorting out this laptop and still did not want to be beaten by it.

There had been an accusation or at best an insinuation that did not go down to well. A similar one involving suggested infidelity was thrown in the other direction. The problem? One partner was on their way and the other one was present. Oh crap! I do not believe I heard them just say those things! This is going to get worse.

It did.

Suddenly the only indirect member of the family speaks for the first time and continues to do so. It was the same question. It was always going to be the same question.

In a few moments I realised there was nothing in either one of these insinuations as the same thin was confided between them and each one took it upon themselves to assume there was much more than that confided. Obviously there was not. Otherwise they would never have confided in the first place.

No one is that stupid.

By now I had drunk a few glasses of Jack Daniel’s, unsual as I rather prefer a real Whiskey like Glenmorangie or Laphraig.

Eventually the family member with the partner present left and stated they would explain things in the car on the way home.

The one that remained was still furious.

They did calm down a bit before another family member entered the room, spoke up for the first time and demanded to know if they was going to strike the other person?! WHAT?!

My head sank. I could not believe that was just asked and in the way it was asked too! What effing point was there to that question? It didn’t happen, that was the main thing. Naturally and obviously it fired up the person it was directed at. Then they did their usual vanishing trick.

Several minutes later and aftyer simmering down a little this person returned and demanded to know if a child from a previous relationship who lives thousands of miles away was still their child in their eyes!


I am dreaming now. I must surely have dropped off to sleep and entered the twilight zone in doing so? Or I am a part of another strange mystery TV series from when I was a kid like The Outer Limits? They surely did not just ask that?!

After setting the person off a second time now they performed another Houdini trick. Funny as they are in a terrible situation in their life and several of us were planning to talk to him. I can tell you exactly how it would go. They would argue against established facts, argue against other facts realised by everyone except them and take a guess what they would do then? Yup … another Houdini and like they did the other night suddenly is disappear out of the street door and not return for 24 hours, after setting the place on fire twice.

If you asked them why they had left they would say that they are “fed up with the arguing”. Odd as they opened their gob twice. They are also the biggest problem in the family, to be honest and little do they know that everyone states it.

In fact one of the embattled two that remained actually stated that Houdini had gotten off lightly and that he was going to state a lot of home truths to him but held back.

Well…that was after I decided to break my silence.

I ordered rather calmly that another person in the room to have taken up the baton of the previous child in a previous relationship and told them to politely ‘drop it’. I explained that this subject was not in the last relevant to what had just happened. I explained that the two subjects that Houdini had bought up was “stupid” top which I got a few thank you’d for from the embattled family member.

I then set out every now and then giving out my quotes of infinite wisdom and felt like bloody Solomon. In fact I generated praise while there and after I left from one family member who normally is highly critical of me. Wonders never cease.

Once I had spent an hour still listening and every now and then breaking my silence with yet another nugget of wisdom I decided that I had done enough. The chances any of it would be remembered or heeded was snot that likely. After all I did state that it was pointless arguing at all and even more pointless as everyone’s emotions were on and off a knife’s edge.

By this time I had finished off with Jack Daniel’s and had started on a Rose wine. I was not completely legless and was getting there. My fish, animals and orchids had gone without me for 48 hours and I could not leave them any longer. Well the fish had an automatic feeder, though that had not bloody worked!

I was not looking forward to public transport on a Boxing Day but thought the alcohol would help the journey. Turned out I was back on very little time as I got on my first bus immediately and waited all of two minutes for the second bus!

As I feared there were the phone-calls and texts that night about what had happened. Hell, it was only a few days ago and I have even had one visit already about it.

The two have disowned each other all because one does not know how to control reactions while the other does not know how to communicate.

Then you descend into a living hell whereby the volumes are pumped up to 11 in the hope that the devils and demand that reside deep within somehow get forced to listen to the messages and learn something.

Yup. Human being really are a funny species alright.

Ooh. Well that was more difficult than I had planned it.

This is the second part of this post and I have just returned from a cycle ride. The weather has allowed me precious little of that privilege this last year and I have precious little in the way of privileges.

I had been out on the last day with sunshine and for a couple of months there have only been three or four days of this. I cannot always go cycling either, because I might need shopping and often do or may even be a doctors appointment.

I had failed to notice there was a south-westerly wind, as I was travelling north and east for the first half of the cycle. I had also cycled over 3.5 miles before I decided to turn around. Good job that I did as I had contemplated cycling another couple of miles further away.

My trouble is I am hard wired to go at certain speeds and normally too damned fast. Whether this is walking or cycling and it creates a problem that creeps up on me. It is like I am constantly impatient and I have to consciously slow myself down … all the damn time.

I am not perfect, far from it but I have been through enough things to be aware of the dangers and the pitfalls. That helps. Most of the time.

I have had certain privileges others do not have, though these feel more like curses than privileges in all honesty and I am sure would sound as much to anyone that hears them.

I have been alone with my thoughts, for instance, a very, very long time. Getting hard to remember the exact length of time but in excess of thirteen years that is for certain.

This comes with its own obvious nightmares and drawbacks and a whole host of others that are not that obvious at all. Most of the time I find no one takes the obvious ones into account, let alone the ones that would fail to know of.

So I have been alone with my thoughts an extremely long time and those thoughts I do have work in a kind of overdrive type velocity. I managed to narrow down why that is and this is to do with my Fibromyalgia.

All brain signals are scrambled is the common belief in medicine though it is surprising how many brain processes are not thought about with Doctors that specialise in this ailment.

So as far as left with my own thoughts it is more like 26 years plus as they go at twice the speed as they would normally do otherwise. I hate, or sometimes love, puzzles and always have to find the answers to them.

If you thrown that into the mix with the number of things I have lived through, experienced and dealt with then suddenly a picture starts to emerge. A BIG picture.

Hence why when I started this blog and throughout I always talk about the ‘bigger picture’.

A lot like the eulogy I wrote for my father all those years ago.

But I live in a world where no one wants to listen, no one wants to read, everyone wants to speak and yet they all want answers.

But answers come from learning which only happens when you read or listen. The third option is to go through it yourself and that is not … always good. Trust me on that.

Old and late Ken was well into his sixties and once said to me “Martin, despite my being older than you, you are the first person I would come to for advice or a problem. But no one else does!” and I just shrugged my shoulders. I explained that we were living in an age where communication was dying and everything was expected to be told in ever shorter sentences and fewer words. I would quote two evils in this that have compounded this with the first one being text messages and the other being Twitter. I then explained that if you even attempted to try and educate anyone about these pitfalls or try to explain anything the responses are along the lines of “I’m too busy” or “Oh I have far too many serious problems going on” and the cycle continues spiralling ever further downward.

Once you dig yourself in deeper enough you will look up to find that you now cannot dig yourself out of the hole you have created.

I wish to God that people could learn. I really do. My own life would have had far, far less horror stories attached to it than it has. Maybe even none at all? But it has … a very long list I live to regret every single day.

I do not want people at my door every day with their horror stories and asking for advice and I told old Ken this. Yet today the very few that I want to come to me and should ask me do not.

This becomes annoying when you thin that they must be getting advice from elsewhere and I can tell you that they should not be doing this. Especially with one particular faction and once learned what the advice is about no one would disagree with this.

Well all except the person that does not ask, of course.

Same old, same old.

It is groaningly tiresome. Especially when lack of advice has caused me no end of more trouble I would rather be without and no cannot avoid.

In fact it was that which made Christmas for me … rather … uncomfortable as well as this Christmas week and the early days of the new year.

So much so that I have half become a hermit and as the days creep by this is with growing with an ever greater want to become a fully fledged hermit altogether.

I promise I wont groan.

My legs ache. A long drive gone on for months now to get myself fitter than I have ever been before and to which I have succeeded. Again. Only this time I am way early on this drive and am determined to carry on for several weeks yet.

I do not like giving in or losing. At all. Not an option. Only in my own personal endeavours that is, not those of other people’s.

It is indeed New Year’s Eve today.

Tomorrow, obviously, is New Year’s Day.

I am not really sure what the first couple of weeks will bring. Maybe more of nothing at all?

Two key dates would have gone by and another speedily approaching, well another two if I am honest. By these dates it would have become way too late and … really, really bad.

I will have to tell and publish all by then and turn my attention onto other things, though these other things were rather dependent on the nothings being somethings. Lol.

I will also be about a year to fourteen months behind. Annoyingly. Still, these things happen much to my annoyance.

Hmm … I just thought, might be a good idea to check my emails?

Yup, more crap, emails from Tagged, Hi5 and a couple of people wanting to follow me on Twitter, speak of the devil. I never go on Twitter but my blog posts get posted on there. Someone tweeting that the GMC are evil, or something to that effect. Yup, worked out that one, lol.

Speaking of devils … that is all we seem to do as a species, to get somewhere we have this unnerving belief that we simply have to shout at the devils inside.



I have often spoken of how odd things are, sometimes bluntly obvious too, to me but seen to be missed by the greater masses.

Sadly it’s the greater masses that can bring about change but doggedly refuse to see and remain blinded.

A fraction of these belongs to a group that, online at least, was coined with the phrase ‘fanboys’.

Now what these idiots … sorry, people do is like something that someone creates, brings out or updates that they own/use/love. Any mention of these products or their manufacturers in a negative way brings on fury and arguments from this group.

Now what I have always found both odd and hilarious is an argument erupts that always results in the ‘fanboy’ declaring their extreme intelligence compared to the one making the remark.

Instead, to anyone with any intelligence at all that is, the opposite is true in that said ‘fanboy’ looks stupid. Because arguments are not decided on how irate you are or how loud you are. The facts will always remain the facts. In these instances when the ‘fanboy’ is proved wrong this is followed by silence or worse, venom and threats.

I see this everywhere and not just online. I see this in my own circle of family and friends. I saw it several times over Christmas!

I always shake my head in disbelief when I hear things said and their replies at times too.

Perhaps not always every time but 99.9% of the time the companies your arguing over will not give a crap whether you live or die. Only that they get more of your money than the next company before you do die, though this particular thing is not what this post is about. It’s about people and commonly made mistakes.

This mistake is probably happening right now as you read this?

People make excuses because of how hard life is that they do not look into anything fully. They take a snippet, or think ‘face value’, decide probably wrong and walk away. Yes, because that’s how you get to the truth, read something the size of a Tweet and that contains all the facts! In other words the excuse is that no one has the time.

Would you think this not odd when someone has spent an incredible amount of time and money, not to mention pain, in an effort to show you? They spend years working on this for you and you give it a couple of minutes or the first 60 characters or less?

Well it happens a lot.

Sometimes I see something I’ve quoted many times go and get quoted by someone famous. Now this happens to me a great deal and it never ceases to amaze me how it then gets reported because someone famous states it.

Now not in this particular instance but a great many famous celebrities are constantly reported as not being too bright, putting it as politely as I can. Yet the news media would rather put a report in a newspaper or on the TV of someone not very bright than someone who is intelligent and been working on this for many years before the celebrity realised it. It happens a great deal and has since I started my blogs, luckily I was aware of this beforehand, hell I even expected it.

But just yesterday I was looking up things to do with the music band called Radiohead. I love this band and the only band currently I take a great deal of notice of and the only one I would not think twice about buying a new album of. Not even U2 command that of me.

I have all 8 albums and heard that Radiohead were working on their ninth album and thought I would look to see if there might be a release date. One of FOUR THINGS that are going to make 2016 an amazing year, … umm ‘touch wood’ CRAP NO BLOODY WOOD IN THIS ROOM!! LOL! Not much luck finding anything even ‘loosely’ based on a date or even a month. Still I’m sure something will occur in the next 8 weeks with a date?

Then I supported and read an interview with Thom Yorke, singer of Radiohead, and was surprised at a statement he made about YouTube and Google!

Now I don’t know a lot about Thom Yorke, other than him being in a mates shop nearby at sine point and being an intriguing free thinker. I do get intrigued and impressed at things he comes out with. I might be wrong but he seems to think very similar to the way I do. I rank him yo somewhere with Stephen Fry as someone who would be great to have a conversation with.

He is also a damn good writer of lyrics.

But in the interview and siskin primarily about musicians, mostly of new music and bands, he disks negatively of companies like Spotify (I personally know nothing about), YouTube and Google which I do know some bad things about.

Just as I have done on here several times he refers to both Google and YouTube as being like the Nazis!

This group I refer to is one of two groups I have referred to as being like stone new form of Nazis that I will get to eventually. I will surprisingly and in an eye opening way link this to evolution, though one of the groups will really hate that, in the near future.

Things have to be taught in a certain order, in a certain way and many need time to … sit in ones mind, so to speak.

Trust me. No one more than me would love to achieve things quickly. In fact I have learnt what many of you have not. To be patient. To make sure you are fully aware of almost the facts before you decide, quote or even vote.

There is a reason we are in the state we are in. Yup, because of idiot members of parliament but who is it that keeps voting for them? Not me, lol. Well none of them that have been in power and the only, currently viable alternative. When I say viable I do mean viable and I’m impossible to argue with. Perhaps why everyone gets pissed off because I price then wrong each time they are adamant that they are right!

Except the rare occasions when they are right I will say they are right. Lol!

So you can go and have a read on NME’s website of what Thom Yorke says and why he says the things he does. I would be willing to Betty he had a few other opinions too?!


Heard about counterfeiting going on with Border Force.

Heard some very, very stupid things being said to make counterfeiters look bad but … for anyone possessing an ounce of intelligence they only made themselves look and sound either bad, corrupt out just plain old stupid.


Firstly that taxes weren’t being paid … funny as I reported something far bigger and involving tens of millions of pounds and no one did anything about it. But that’s not the problem .. they insinuated that tax was being lost on the purchases of the real thing!

Umm… No! These fakes are not selling for the same prices as the trash thing toy bloody idiots, no one will believe that and secondly … what you think if fakes of say a top brand handbag isn’t being sold for £50 the potential buyer will go out and but the real one at £500?!

Jesus! Are they serious?

Secondly they talked about the top prices they are not receiving for these goods and stated what they weighs be used for. Drugs? A bit old they one but better still, terrorism?!

Are you for effing real?! Terrorism? Well they must be very short of computers in China and Going Kong because the only terrorism they get closer to is hacking servers and stealing trade or military secrets! Think that’s called espionage and not terrorism.

I could not believe my ears and the person in question certainly didn’t sound like they knew what the hell they were talking about!

Border Force? Rocking Horse more like as I’m thinking that they patrolling borders and what happened in Troy! Giant Rocking Horse!


My good God! Is anything in the United Kingdom run with any intelligence? Or is it all just bullshit to feed is for some unknown reason?

Yeah, counterfeiting is wrong but … good God man, call a spade a spade or you will cause yourself more harm than good.


Well it is getting perilously close to Christmas.

I have been at a loose end and bored out of my very tiny mind for several weeks now.

Sometimes you have to rely or wait upon others to do their thing before getting around to you and though this was a major feature of late of this blog I have not mentioned it much for several weeks.

In other words it is several weeks later than I thought it would be and do not really know why this is, though I was given a reason several weeks ago. It just did not make sense and not a very good reason.


Since then things have been fairly quiet … fairly quiet. In other words not completely silent, though I myself have been. Rather oddly some things were stated to be taking place prior to Christmas and now that looks to be not happening either. Again I am not really sure why.

I do have this nagging thought about a twelve to sixteen week period but we will see.

I do also have another theory which is worrying but denied this was the case and once again we will just wait and see.

Of course as I confided in friends and family I have also had dozens of other theories and everyone thinks they are right, as always.

Except as I always try to explain to my socialist thinking mother that everyone has a right to an opinion and you can have one hundred people and one hundred theories. But only one can be the right one!

No one thinks about the odds of their theories being proved right before they start getting first adamant and then almost angry about their theories being correct. Yup .. all several dozen of them.

Well, all that is except two. Two people that have known me only 8 years or so and so shorter than everyone else and they state that there is no way I have got this wrong. They are just confused at the delaying tactics and confused at the reasons I have been given.

They also think it is silly as I should be … well let us say ‘among the Pigeons’ with this one, due to my  age, intellect and wisdom with all the dangers and pitfalls that, not could arise but, will arise.

Annoyingly even the twelve week period takes us beyond Christmas … something I had given as a bit of a deadline. After that it would be obvious something is wrong and one of the bad theories is correct, even one of those given by others adamant they are right about a situation, people and laws they have no knowledge of. Not looking forward to the latter being true, let me tell you!


So let us see? It is Sunday the 20th December 2016. Literally five days until Christmas and I am wondering just what kind of a week this next one is going to be?

Probably as dead as the Dodo! LOL!

I am OK until the new year and then … listen to me saying ‘OK’? Things are NOT OK. Far from it! I mean to say that in the new year things will get far worse than they are now.

So I have a sort of plan in place … or rather in my head to kind of deal with this situation of mine getting progressively worse. Something else is already in place and I hope a certain journalist discovers something, either way in fact. At least then I know finally and can move forwards accordingly.

Things have stagnated for … hmm … around ten months I think? Give or take a month. In that time I have had to finance something and I originally had £1,300 odd saved up. The original plan this year was to …

  • Buy NIKON D810a SLR for wildlife and astrophotography
  • Buy Celestron 8 Inch Reflector with GOTO mount, for stargazing and astrophotography
  • Buy Dishwasher
  • Possibly NIKON P900 for carrying around constantly … for things that occur when you least expect them to
  • New Mobile Phone, Moto X Force, as its waterproof and unbreakable and survive all my shenanigans (my phone playing up, everyone moaned for months, lol)
  • Lighter and shorter handlebar for mountain bike, lighter saddle and pedals, possibly narrow tyres, hence lighter
  • Buy Eheim Professional External Filter for my aquarium, current taps leaky
  • Ten months of running around with camera, on trains to new places and wildlife
  • Pressure kept up on all public services and much more data
  • Astell & Kern AK JR hi-res music player
  • Shure SE535 or similar headphones for above player
  • All new bedclothes
  • So building up a total of FIVE blogs altogether;
  • Corruption, Reptiles, Amphibians & Fish, Astronomy & Astrophysics, Computer Hardware and Music … six with Digital Photography, lol!
  • My YouTube channel

I have acquired none of these and down around £5,000 this last year. Oops! Never mind, eh? Lol.

So I am now a year behind, more or less.

Had I have done all this the visitor numbers would look even more impressive than they are now and combined it must be … umm … closing in on 280,000!


Not bad considering the disabilities, lack of resources, cash, tools and God knows how many other things that dog me.

In fact if I just consider how much more content and visitors I would have had, had I the use, or better still owned, a car, my mind implodes! DOOF!

None of this would have mattered had the main plan, or event, gone the way I had planned. In fact I have had interest in my books, annoyingly, on the basis that this main event pans out like I had planned and proves to be true!

Everything literally goes into an exponential rise like you would not believe and that is just the blogs and YouTube channel. The two books and then the third one and then there are all the other novels I started years ago I never completed. Also the book on amphibians and mainly Fire Salamanders whereby one Japanese wildlife expert and his publishing company along with a solicitor went wild when they saw it and what I had created, complete with my own drawings done on a computer.

One day … one day, perhaps?

Hmm so then … I often speak of the things I know and what I can do but apart from visitors going off and find my other lighter hearted blogs, other than the corruption in the UK and public services, no one here would actually know. Unless they specifically and intentionally found my YouTube channel.

So I have had too much time on my hands while waiting, wondering, theorising and panicking on occasion so what do I do?

I get a phone-call one day to tell me a particularly favourite and overly large salamander has become available … for a price and I have to do it! They were kept in a cage I was not happy with. Nowhere near big enough for them.

Really these guys live in moss and lichen covered forested areas. Ivy, plants and plenty of leaf litter.

I thought about a much bigger cage that looked just like that. Something that looked like a slice of a mystical forest right here in my living room.

So do you know what I did with my spare time?

I built one!

I then decided to film myself building this in three parts and explain how to keep the mosses and lichen alive in a terrarium by explaining what I do with water for the terrariums, Orchids and my aquarium!

Water and light are both key! Cannot emphasize this enough … so here is me performing just one of my long list of skills … even my martial arts, or a little of, are on my YouTube channel.

So you get a bet of me … waffling on about things and how I do things and the issues I have with doing them. So people kind of get to see me … instead of just imagining I am some crazed conspiracy theorise without listening to my secretly recorded audio files of those I accused actually lying and even admitting they were lying on tape…or digital audio file to be precise, lol.

I have some little bits of fine tuning to do and I need a Button Fern, as I really like the look of them, to go in the terrarium along with Baby Tears, Hemianthus, two alpine plants, Thymus and Mentha, and a few other things. Maybe a creeping plant and another type of climbing plant?

This is what I did while awaiting confirmation about the conclusions of a humongous court case that went to the Supreme Court after being heard at the Magistrates, Family, Crown, Civil and High Courts.

Four Pyrenean Fire Salamanders (Salamandra salammandra fastuosa) and four Marbled Newts (Triturus marmoratus) live inside the terrarium below. Although the Marbled Newts are only over-wintering in the cage until March, 2016.

(or crazy nutter in action)






Well here I am again finding myself in the middle of something and collecting more evidence about someone I have before.

Only this time not as much as I would have liked, in all honesty.


On walking home yesterday I spot a Swan playing a game of tag with some traffic, which was all coming to a halt with a queue of cars building up.

I do not know what the idiots thought sounding their horns would do? Morons.

There was a mother and her kids nearby watching and I crossed the road to take control of the situation and the Swan.

I was asked some silly things like “I dare you to stroke it” by one of the children not realising that it would not be a good idea to scare the Swan therefore stressing it out even more than it was.

As I walked back and forth the Swan remained away from the road but seemed intent on getting back in it, despite the numerous vehicles and tooting of horns.

Some people did eventually approach stating that they had rung someone and that they would be there in ten minutes.

The Swan was groggy either through illness or perhaps in shock from a crash landing. It was also causing some serious problems on a very busy road and walking right along the centre of it. Which could have caused an accident. Especially a young driver coming over the bridge too fast, seeing the Swan at the last minute which could have caused them to swerve off the road. This could have led to injuries and even deaths!

The lady returned while still on her mobile to the RSPCA and there was a look on her face and I realised at that moment she had not rang the Swan Sanctuary and was being told by the RSPCA that they were not going to come out.

Despite the heart string pulling adverts by them on TV about how much they care for and look after animals while showing you a young woman saving a cat from a cardboard box they do not give a flying feck about animals.

It was very obvious a great many years ago that they had become a profit making business, despite supposedly being a charity, and was more interested in making money, or rather conning it out of the mostly naive British public.

Being an expert on many branches of the animal kingdom and having an affinity with nature I am always getting involved if an animal is ill, stressed, injured or in immediate danger. A few years back I helped guide the Swan Sanctuary, via a very nice lady called Gwen, to another Cygnet with a broken leg.

Every other time I have been there when the RSPCA were called or was told about calling them up about an injured animal from birds to foxes they have  never, ever come out.

I then have to explain that they never do, make all kinds of feeble excuses and yet are always maintaining in their awful adverts how much they care and ave animals.


What they do, do is go after members of the public with any excuse they can find to state that they have not looked after their pets correctly so that they can fine them, money you see. I also point out that many years ago they spent £142 Million, if my failing memory is correct, on huge offices in St. Stephen’s Parade, opposite Big Ben, yes that Big Ben, which no doubt costs a bloody fortune to run.

The looks on their faces when they realise.

Oddly enough this was the first real organisation that stood out to be corrupt and yet years later they start reporting similar things with other organisations. Primarily realising their is some fat effing twat earning millions each year in charge of said organisation.

They have even started stating as much about other charities.

Yet with all the rules in place for TV advertising they get to advertise while quite obviously lying through their teeth. Somehow! They are being joined on TV by loan companies that despite an annual percentage rate of 30% looking like a rip off ten years ago are charging 1500%! Like Quick Quid.

Yeah too bloody right! Quick Quid turns into Quick Quids to Sovereigns! LMAO!

I was just talking about this to a friend today and he said he had noticed them on TV and a few of them and was panicking that one of his children, who is naive and thinks money grows on trees and always paying big fees for overdrafts until his Dad pays it off, would take a loan out.

He has had to order him not to take any of the loans out that advertise on TV.

So it would seem that more often than not TV adverts are becoming not only inundated with these corrupt organisations trying to defraud you of your cash to pay themselves for sitting on their arses but are gradually increasing the percentage of air time they currently take up!

So there I am thinking about the idiots at the RSPCA and how I would now like to thump one of them because I am in pain trying to protect a Swan and they cannot get off their arses.

Well over thirty minutes go by and suddenly the Swan starts flapping its wings and sprinting along the side road. It is trying to take off and it does an in the direction of the canal. A green metal fence with spiked tops is in its way and I am worried that it will crash into it killing itself.

At one point the Swan did not seem too sure of itself and it dropped its height fractionally before suddenly putting more effort into it. It looked as if it would clear the fence and it did to my relief … before then crashing down into a tiny section that is someone’s garden only ten feet from the canal!

Go figure!

I walk up the bridge to be able to look down and check on the Swan. He, or she, is on its belly with wings slightly splayed out. I ask it what it thought it was doing and it looks up and almost seems to recognise me as its recent shadow. It gets up and walks about a bit but there is no way it can take off where it is. For the next ten minutes I glance up and down the road hoping to see a van that looks like some kind of Pet Rescue outfit. Nothing.

A lady appears and talks for a bit and explains she has called someone called ‘Pet Rescue’ and that they would be there in ten minutes. I explain that four separate people have called up, starting like an hour beforehand, and they all said ten minutes, apart from the RSPCA who refused to come out at all.

Another ten minutes go by and nothing.

Eventually the mother and children I was speaking to when I was first guarding the Swan are heading out and I see one of those tiny Smart Cars coming up the street. I decide it cannot possibly be them in such a small car when I then notice it come to a stop, level with the family as they look at the driver and then turn and point at me, 200 yards or more up the road.

I sort of laugh in my head, wondering if he is going to give the car keys to the Swan and let it drive itself to a lake up in Fishers Green?! I could not see how a fully grown Swan an a man was going to fit in that matchbox on wheels?!

I am now desperate to get home and off my feet and allow my back to stop hurting, still hurting today from yesterday. I drop of a wall, waving at him as he approached and just told him about the Swan seeming groggy, too calm but was capable of taking flight.

He thanked me and I buggered off home.

I did a little video of said Swan as I was waiting for several organisations to fail to turn up ..


Well I finally got a response to my questions of why sodium oxybate and milnacipran were turned down for use with Fibromyalgia.

Rather bizarrely they have responded and included Pregabalin with these two which, though I mentioned, is cleared for use with Fibromyalgia as far as I was aware!

Now if I missed something here and Pregabalin has not been cleared for use with Fibromyalgia I am a bit confused as to not only why I was told I would be prescribed it but that not a single GP or specialist I have mentioned the drug to has replied that it is snot cleared for Fibromyalgia.


It is not cleared by the NHS for use with them and I was given a bullshit excuse for this too as they thought I had been told or informed it was not cleared for use.

Did they just let the proverbial cat out of the bag here?

Anyway I will now paste their full email response along with my reply …


Dear Mr Haswell

Thank you for your letter of 30 November.

The decision to apply for marketing authorisation of a medicine in a particular indication is not made by the European Medicines Agency (EMA), but the companies concerned. The Agency can only evaluate the evidence with which it is presented and can only approve a medicine for marketing if the benefits are clearly demonstrated and outweigh the risk of side effects. EMA’s assessments do not consider matters of cost and reimbursement, which are handled at a national level.
However, in the treatment of fibromyalgia, good evidence of effectiveness was not shown with sodium oxybate (Xyrem), pregabalin (Lyrica and its generic alternatives) or milnacipran when the companies marketing these medicines applied to the EMA to authorise such use.

In 2011, the company which markets Xyrem (UCB Pharma) applied to the Agency to extend the use of the medicine to patients with fibromyalgia. This involved results from two short-term studies involving 1,121 patients with moderate to severe symptoms and one longer term study involving 560 patients; the majority of the patients came from outside the European Union (EU). Results in the subgroup of patients from the EU in these studies did not demonstrate a clear benefit, either short- or long-term and there was a high incidence of side-effects on the brain and nervous system. As a result the EMA’s committee of experts responsible for the evaluation considered at that time that the benefits of the medicine did not outweigh its risks, and recommended against approving it to treat fibromyalgia. Details of this evaluation are given in the Agency’s assessment report at:

With respect to pregabalin, in 2009 Pfizer Ltd presented the results of five main studies involving over 3,000 adults with fibromyalgia. Again, most of the patients included in the studies came from outside the EU. After evaluation, the Agency was similarly concerned that the benefits of Lyrica in fibromyalgia had not been shown in either the short or the long term in patients from the EU. There were no consistent or relevant reductions in pain or other symptoms in the short-term studies. In addition, the change in symptoms did not seem to be related to the dose of Lyrica that the patients received, and the maintenance of Lyrica’s effect was not shown in the longer study. At that point in time, therefore, any benefits of Lyrica in the treatment of fibromyalgia did not outweigh the risks of its known side effects. Hence, the Agency recommended that the change to the marketing authorisation be refused. For further information, see

In the same year, an application was made to EMA by the company Pierre Fabre Médicament for the use of milnacipran to treat fibromyalgia. After evaluation of three main studies, involving 2,960 adult patients with fibromyalgia, the Agency’s scientific experts were of the opinion that the effect of the medicine was marginal. There was again a lack of data on the long-term effects in a European population. Therefore, at that point in time, EMA was once more of the opinion that the benefits of the medicine in the treatment of fibromyalgia did not outweigh the risks, and recommended against marketing authorisation. For more information on this, including details of the assessment, see under the various tabs on

Should a further appropriate application for use in fibromyalgia be made for any of these medicines, the Agency would thoroughly evaluate any new scientific evidence presented, in order to reach a decision on whether to recommend marketing authorisation.

The Agency’s remit covers the scientific assessment of medicines and the monitoring of their safety once they are marketed, and we are unable to comment on the other matters covered in your letter.

A copy of this reply has also been sent to you by post.

Kind regards

Paul Blake
Stakeholders and Communication Division


European Medicines Agency

I have received your report on the situation regarding the application of the drugs sodium oxybate (Xyrem), pregabalin (Lyrica, though I never said it was refused to be used only refused over money and this has been told to me by at least two Doctors) and milnacipran.

  • effectiveness was not shown with sodium oxybate (Xyrem), pregabalin (Lyrica and its generic alternatives) or milnacipran

  • 1) This conflicts greatly with everything I have ever researched and even solicitors I worked for stated that I am extremely good at research

  • 2) This also conflicts with the patients accounts of the use of these drugs

  • In 2011, the company which markets Xyrem (UCB Pharma) applied to the Agency to extend the use of the medicine to patients with fibromyalgia. This involved results from two short-term studies involving 1,121 patients with moderate to severe symptoms and one longer term study involving 560 patients; the majority of the patients came from outside the European Union (EU). Results in the subgroup of patients from the EU in these studies did not demonstrate a clear benefit, either short- or long-term and there was a high incidence of side-effects on the brain and nervous system.

  • This is a … frankly bizarre statementalso … WHAT side-effects?

  • 1) Are you stating that thins are not done this way in Europe in which case why would they ever bother approaching Europe over these drugs

  • 2) I very much doubt that drug companies would approach the EU, despite my understanding of their underhanded nature and dislike of them, with drugs that do not clearly work or cause such terrible side effects

  • 3) All drugs have side effects and do you not think it I down to the patient when it comes to weighing up the risks to the benefits? Anyone can so no or do you not think that patients are capable of rational thought?

  • 4) Further to the first point … where are your own trials?

  • 5) Your statement of weighing up the benefits and risks contradicts your statement that there was little or no effectiveness

Do you know what I constantly think of several time each week and have done for the last 7 years at least?

What it would be like to actually take sodium oxybate even for just a week to ee what it feels like to be normal once again.

I also ponder that as the Fibromyalgia Syndrome issue is lack of restorative sleep and that symptoms collect over many years that taking sodium oxybate for just one week may reset everything back to the start prior to being affected by my first ever symptom.

In other words having none at all or only one of the 120 odd symptoms I currently experience.

Another conclusion I have come to regarding just the case with Fibromyalgia Syndrome is that the people that make up the committees and organisations that make thee absurd decisions are idiots made up of friends of people in government, central or local, that have not the first clue about just how bad some conditions can be on the human body as well as the mind.

Your answer has had zero effect in changing that view.

Incompetence, corruption and general skulduggery can manifest absolutely anywhere and in my years of endeavours I have generally found it to be everywhere I look 100% of the time.

In which case and in every instance there is a general protocol that exists for making challenges, legally or otherwise, to said organisations.

I would like to ask of you what exist for you?

Can you provide me with a ombudsman for you or governing body or even a watchdog? I imagine any challenge would be quite tricky for any professional body especially when they have other professional bodies that conflict with their reasons that are based on something as flimsy as …

Side effects of drugs.

This made even said drugs are cleared for ailments that re not even in the same league as Fibromyalgia Syndrome.

Now I will mention my blogs once again.

I blog about corruption and I have covered organisations in the dozens. As big as you like. I have never been challenged bot that is because of who I am and how I do things.

No bullshit. I am honest in everything I do, sincere and to the point no matter how sharp this may be. Except that when I do this I am not doing this purely through my blogs on corruption.

You might have noted the letters after my name? BSc Applied Computing.

I do a blog on computer hardware and software with some gadgets thrown in. But this is not my only subject of expertise and I provide blogs on …

  • Batrachology

  • Herpetology

  • Ichthyology

  • Astronomy and Astrophysics

  • Orchidaceae

  • British Wildlife

  • others including Kung Fu, Photography, Music, Movies and more

My corruption blogs alone number around 3,000 posts and some read like Tolstoy’s War & Peace.

I have a dozen blogs and the amount of writing involved is astronomical and with each and every one what people see is someone level headed, factual, professional and honest. Someone that does not like what he sees, dislikes the lack of professionalism, abuses of positions of power and what the UK has become.

Someone that has not just gone out and done something about it but has spent years secretly recording, collecting and compiling letters that go back 20 years and publishing everything for to help other victims, people suffering physically, mentally or both.

What surprises people most of all is that I have done this alone and there is one very outstanding endeavour that over-shadows everything I have done previously.

Despite many of my endeavours being worthy of front page national tabloid news this one last one is capable of a front page serial all on its own.

If they are surprised at what I have done and achieved so far with my excess of 100GB of data it is nothing compared to what is coming over the next couple of months. Something that will amass so much attention that it will make the 300,000 visitors I have had thus far look like a drop in the ocean.

While I twiddle my thumbs waiting for this to happen I had some requests to my GP go unanswered and I know all the reasons why. As I have proved them in the past over and over again to show my visitors this is not a localised incident, not a one off but that many Doctors and GP’s are lying and are doing so under command.

Indeed many of the stories that have arisen on everyone, not just the NHS, have originated as one my stories.

Indeed if I inform you that the late backbench Labour MP, Michael Meacher, approached me via email in January 2013 requesting if he could use my blog data to atack Iain Duncan-Smith in the House of Commons while end others to the news media I am sure you will realise that even two years ago I had a hell of a lot of data?

I have not even published half of what I have!

So getting back on track …

I found myself being fobbed off again, I looked up the link between high blood pressure, which I have and my father died of a burst aneurysm at 56, I am 47 nearly, and read about milnacipran and it being refused along with sodium oxybate. I then decided to look into who make these decisions and mount another challenge against another organisation.

It kind of kills the time while my secret four year long court battle waits to hit the headlines and gives me something to do while peaking my interest.

So that procedure/ombudsman/governing body I asked for?

I look forward to hearing from you with great interest.

Yours sincerely

Martin Haswell BSc


Umm … below is a link to a BBC report that states that 329,000 have signed a petition to ban Donald Trump from the UK?!

Worse still is that based on that number Members of Parliament are considering it?!


First off I don’t know a whole great deal about Donald Trump but am aware that he made a statement about banning Muslims from entering the US and possibly, not sure, about sending ones in the US of elsewhere?

So, makes no never mind as I believed there was …

1 Freedom of Speech
2 That figure of the petition is … fucking tiny and …
3 Probably all Muslims anyway, maybe radicalised ones?
4 Ban him and by some miracle he ends up President of the USA and …
5 Cut off from USA … ummm …

You know now that I think about it …

No, no, no. It’s about what is right. I do get so bloody annoyed when they want to silence someone as it goes against freedom of speech and tells their own people that they are not to listen to them like children not staying up late to watch the horror movie.

Trump UK ban petition passes 329,000 signatures –


Well this is a turn up for the books. Literally.

In the past couple of days I have heard two bizarre things ..

1 That there is a song out to help save the NHS, yes it if true and …

2 The first report of a wave of people who have died due to the NHS is reported

I wonder what those involved in the song to Dave the NHS will think and feel about this latest report?

When I heard about the song, now in the charts at number 39 I heard, I could boy help but wonder if the people involved knew hire bad things were? No they wouldn’t and that should be obvious to me, no I mean have some idea that things were rotten?

I also wondered where the money would go? Would it go the the fat cat idiots in the Primary Care Trusts or those running the hospitals that hid the deaths that occurred?

It’s no good throwing money at a metaphorical piggy bank with a hole the size of Jupiter. There is no skill in that and the money disappears leaving no trace whatsoever.

A smaller hole and successes show an element of skill and when wrong there is money left lying around with not too much lost in the smaller hole.

This report only covers deaths of mental health sufferers and those with learning difficulties. You can bet the many hundreds, maybe thousands eventually will be missing a few.

This has occurred earlier than I expected it to but it is just the start. I am sure that there will be another revelation to come at a later date when the loved ones of someone who died in hospital, or indeed outside it, start looking into their own catastrophes.

This is because consistent and continuous refusals of diagnosis and treatment are happening when they cannot possibly know what the health conditions are. They avoid diagnosis, do they not?

The relatives of those who died might just start asking how many times the person they lost had been to a GP or hospital prior to their deaths?

This is something that had occurred to me a very, very long time ago and at a guess I would start it was certainly beyond 13 years. Probably around 14 to 15 years and could well have been 20. My grandmother died around 16 years ago and I knew there was something very, very wrong with her death. She was misdiagnosed for a start about a year or so before her death.

She was told she had asthma at 75 and given ventilators but I now know she had Fibromyalgia and died of heart failure.

Go figure.

So it will be interesting to see exactly what happens over this song released to help pay for an organisation that deliberately caused so many deaths. Well it had to be deliberately as they didn’t want to diagnose patients. Which meant they didn’t care.

They simply had to know this would lead to the deaths of people, you have to be some sort of incompetent twat not to realise that.

It’s simple laws of averages.

So they are asking why they didn’t investigate these deaths? Well I think the answer is effing obvious, wouldn’t you agree?

How much money will the song released make? Where will it go and will we see a difference?

In fact they have put themselves in a corner …

1 If the song fails to sell it will show how much the public distrust the NHS and all hell will break loose!

2 If the song makes loads of cash they will be under pressure to make hundreds of changes that the public will see or all hell will break loose!

Basically chances are that … all hell will break loose!

The question is will this be pre or post the second wave of reports over deaths caused by the NHS over money when there are so many making so much money over careers that have no positive effect to the NHS or its patients.

NHS trust ‘failed to investigate hundreds of deaths’ –


There is something I wanted to look into for the longest time and never got around to it.

Considering my involvements, or rather spotting and catching, these people you would think I would have done. But I hhad already beaten scores of them and was in the clear so I focused on other things.

I am speaking, of course, about the Koran, or Quran, the Holy Book of Islam.

Except it appears now to not be so holy and quite the opposite in fact!

I had a message through from someone on Facebook who posted something. Someone who is themselves a professional person and I was surprised as I would have lost a bet that this post would have come from them.

Apparently and according to this post I read it states that what I thought they called ‘Infidels’ are actually called ‘Kafirs’.

Not only that but what it states about these non-believers beggars belief and despite my stating that they are the ‘New Nazis’ they are even worse than I first thought!

Remember this is a religion that they keep reminding us is about love and respect and for some bizarre reason that which I have read has never appeared in any news article, tsk-tsk, I have read … ANYWHERE?!

We, the Kafir non-believers, are to be stoned and tortured along with a list of quite horrible other things?!

The Quran contains at least 109 verses that call Muslims to war with nonbelievers for the sake of Islamic rule.  Some are quite graphic, with commands to chop off heads and fingers and kill infidels wherever they may be hiding.  Muslims who do not join the fight are called‘hypocrites’ and warned that Allah will send them to Hell if they do not join the slaughter.

– Excerpt from Religion Of Peace

Then there is the pages that try to explain it away and then make quotes that is the utter opposite to what I have experienced …

The vast majority of Muslims are content to live and let live. In fact, that is part of their religion.

– Huffington Post Religion

Yeah … sorry but if I think back I can think of several run ins with Muslims, one defrauded me out of £5,000 and went back on a promise, a bunch of Muslim kids used to attack my brother and threw bottles at my fathers house and then there are the ones I am currently involved with.

Some of these, or those linked to them have appeared in the news a fair bit over the last couple of years … and will do so again in the coming months.

They were radical Muslims and a paedophhile ring who were living in houses our local councils gave them along with the businesses they had, or have. It will be revealed that one council worker told a mother losing her child that they, the council, will come down on the side of the Muslim MAN because ‘it is the politically correct thing to do’! 

The council in question lost …. and lost badly!

In the excerpt in the Huffington Post it states that ‘the majority of Muslims are content to live and let live’. Are they? How do they know this? Did they ask them all? Were they sure that they told the truth if they did ask them all?

To be fair I knew of one guy who was a Muslim who was OK. But I could be wrong on that and he is only one guy.

This … news is extremely troubling.

How can you trust anyone in a religion whereby two thirds or more of their book speak about nothing more than torturing, maiming and murdering innocent people purely because they do not want to believe is something that is in essence a completely daft and mad notion?!

You cannot.

I think they are such good liars, oh and believe me I have recordings of them lying, because they believe that they are supreme beings and that we are no higher than worms from under a rock and so not worthy of respect or honesty.

I have picked that feeling up from my own dealings with these misguided morons.

Now this following text is what came through to me on my Facebook account …

The word “non-Muslim” does not imply anything, except not being a believer in Islam, in which case, many of us would then label ourselves as being ‘Infidels’ orChristians perhaps!.
But in the Koran you will rarely see those term being used to descibe us non-believers. We are all ‘Kafir’ in their Islamic terms!

Kafir, on the other hand, has enormous implications. Kafir is the actual word that the Koran uses for a non-Muslim. Indeed, one of the many remarkable things about the Koran is that over half of its text is devoted to the Kafir. Think about that: most of the Koran is not about how to be a Muslim, but about the Kafir. Every single verse about the Kafir is not just bad, but terrible. Allah hates Kafirs and plots and schemes against them. The cruelest punishments await the Kafir in hell, but who cares about that? The real problem is what is promised to the Kafir in this life — torture, hatred, death, ridicule, rape, enslavement, political domination and deception.

Like I stated, I do not know who wrote this or where it came from but it certainly got my attention from the sheer shock of what it contains and claims.

If that starts to become common knowledge to every single person who is non-Muslim, or Kafir, then it is going to get really bad and really quickly too. Especially if it turns out to be true, regardless of the lame excuses and adamant opinions.

They might just get the Jihad they want so badly … though I might suggest putting the Koran to one side one day and read an entire book on mathematics over and over before it is too late?!

Here is another quote …

“About sixty-one percent of the contents of the Koran are found to speak ill of the unbelievers or call for their violent conquest; at best only 2.6 percent of the verses of the Koran are noted to show goodwill toward humanity. About seventy-five percent of Muhammad’s biography (Sira) consists of jihad waged on unbelievers.”

Free Thought Nation – 


If you can recall from the past I have stated that I have been lied to repeatedly and it comes across that we are not worthy to those that I have met. I also state that I do feel that the majority of them are lying and actually secretly want this and want to take over.

I have seen photos of marches by them and their banners state as much! Just proving that which I had long since picked up on.

Now where the trouble lies with the brewing hatred of them is that of effing bureaucrats and public services bendin over backwards to house these people while British people get left homeless and destitute.

I know because it has happened to me half a dozen times at least.

Speaking Rational Thought –

You can lead a horse to water …


Well while working out some things and awaiting the outcome of others I decided to look up that which my GP asked me too, the link between high blood pressure and Fibromyalgia.

Well it turns out there is one, I am learning something new all the time.

Now here is where it gets interesting, especially if you are a sufferer or close to someone that is …

On the page I found it also lists all the drugs that work on this horrid condition, including that one that Dr Kirkham of Guy’s Hospital had not heard orf despite it being the only drug that works on the core problem … sleep, Sodium Oxybate (brand name Xyrem).

Now I cannot find the damned web page!

Anyhoo … on the webpage it states a few things I did not know … one of them a new drug for Fibromyalgia called Milnacipran (brand name Savella). This works like Amitriptyline but turns out works on the specific neurotransmitters that affect us with FMS! Sounds too good to be true but there is a greater lean towards this drug for FMS sufferer and many have claimed it works very well.

However, this still does not deal with the lack of sleep problem and it reportedly only works with the pain and not the fatigue side of things of FMS. Still, better than nothing.

Except …

I also learned that both drug companies to both drugs, maybe one company for both as I cannot remember, approached Europe about clearing them for use for Fibromyalgia and to the drug companies surprise Europe said no to both?!

So I got annoyed with this and decided to ‘tear a new one’ off the European Medicines Agency over it, their bureaucratic crap and the fact that they are not being very nice to sufferers of not just Fibromyalgia Syndrome but obviously a great many  sufferers across the board!

Would you like to see the letter? They have already acknowledged my letter …



30th November 2015

European Medicines Agency
30 Churchill Place
Canary Wharf
London E14 5EU
United Kingdom

Dear Sirs


I have had Fibromyalgia Syndrome for nigh on twenty years.

I had been pressing hard for a diagnosis for 13 years when I discovered Fibromyalgia and self diagnosed it as that affecting me. I have in the region of 120 symptoms, so it answered many other things that idiot GP’s across six surgeries, over a dozen, and six hospitals failed to spot.

I argued with the above Doctors the whole time.

I not only proved I was correct but I also discovered that they, the NHS, had known I had Fibromyalgia for at least three year and lied to me about it.

I recorded them for several years and even many admitting they had lied and been asked to lie to patients.

I have recorded many diagnosis that was also retracted.

I can assure you that many of my endeavours have been picked up, mimicked or mirrored by the varous news media outlets.

Because I post on blogs and of the many subjects, primarily science, that I over I also cover corruption both in the public services, oh and the NHS are by no means alone in corruption, and private companies.

I have well over 100GB of data.

However I have still had some issues even after diagnosis and still am today.

I had my Fibromyalgia confirmed at Guy’s Hospital by a Doctor Kirkham and a specialist in FMS who also spotted and diagnosed a physical problem with my right knee, done by performing a Lachman’s Test. However I was shocked to discover that he had never heard of Sodium oxybate, Xyrem.

I was already aware that Sodium Oxybate was the one and only drug that dealt with the source of the issue with Fibromyalgia Syndrome and one that you cannot deny is pretty serious …

Lack of stage 3 and 4 restorative sleep? Really?!

Your going to hide how serious this is?

Do I have to explain how many parts of the human anatomy, including the brain itself, that this has a degrading affect on?!

So imagine my confusion when I discover that Sodium Oxybate is not allowed to be prescribed for Fibromylagia Syndrome but IS for Narcolepsy?! Really?! Are you serious?!

Well you quite obviously think yourselves of a different sect of the human race from the rest if us?

To make matters worse there is Pregabalin. At the time of the Lachman’s Test on my knee I was promised Pregabalin. I was told that a letter would be forwarded to my GP.

When it arrived the letter had clearly not only been interfered with, likely intercepted, but had the knee condition, the Lachman’s Test or mention that I screamed In pain from it and the prescription for Pregabalin removed from it!

Oddly enough someone at the NHS had figured out that I had been recording them but failed to realise I had been doing this for five years or more.

With a grin I was not prescribed Pregabalin as he had told me unless a Doctor prescribed it from Guy’s Hospital he would not do it. He had made e turn off several devices so that we were not recorded first.

We rowed for an hour and all the patients heard us.

I offered him the testimony by way of a CD of the whole appointment at Guy’s Hospital that included the Lachman’s Test along with the promised Pregabalin.

He refused to listen to it based on the same lie he had accused me of … breaking the law, which I pointed out in steps why I had not broken any laws.

To his dismay he later discovered that I had indeed recorded our entire row for like 50 minutes and posted it on my blog that same night.

It seems the punishment for discovering that 100% of British GP Surgeries lie is pretty bad and I was kicked off for a breakdown in trust?! Was he effing serious?!

I had known for several years I was being lied to and they made the mistake of thinking that he and hi surgery was the first ones to be recorded by me. Nope.

Several Doctors at Abernathy House Surgery

Dr Roobans Surgery, who quit over me

Paperwork on Cartlon House Surgery and …

Forest Road Medical Centre

Where every single one lied!

Along with …

Guy’s Hospital

Royal Free Hospital

Chase Farm Hospital

St Michael’s Hospital

Potters Bar Community Hospital

Barnet Hospital

and paperwork from Whipps Cross Hospital

Trust me when I state that what I have regarding my chasing down Fibromyalgia alone is a lot but that is not including chasing down diagnosis for …

Right Knee Pain (tricked, manipulated and retractions)

Hiatus Hernia (refused operation for 20 years, severe heartburn like heart attack)

Oesophagitis Grade C

Extreme chronic Nausea

High Blood Pressure, Hypertension Stage 2, often over 170 and 180 at rest along with …

Postural Hypotension that causes me to black out and fall over

Inguinal Hernia (only op I had and it now causes me pain)

Inguinal Hernia (diagnosed then lied about)

Each of those I acquired a mountain of evidence on.

All of this along with two Police Forces and four local councils has all been posted on my blog over 3.5 year and rising and to date I have had in excess of 250,000 people and this is rising faster than ever.

I never lie.

I never ever fabricate.

I am known on my blog for holding my hands up if I have gotten things wrong.

Even with my theories and predictions I very rarely get things wrong.

I have many top professionals in the literary agency fields and even Doctors follow me and my data has been used the late Michael Meacher MP to attack Iain Duncan-Smith in the House Of Commons and in the email request I still have he asks if he can send elements of to the news media.

That was January 2013 and likely where more questionable journalists discovered me and what I had done and acquired?

So then?

Why are you screwing over Fibromyalgia Syndrome sufferers?

It appears to be intentional.

I will warn you here and now that if your doing this on that moronic notion that FMS does not really exist, I will rip a hole in your organisation that size of Australia.

I have already done this to dozens of Ombudsman, for every single one of the dozens of organisations I acquired data on I also got the same on their ombudsman.

It is all on my blog.

I wont give you the blog … as most people ignore it until it is too late so it is a waste of time doing so.

Why have you not approved Sodium Oxybate nor Milnacipran for Fibromyalgia and why cannot even get a months worth of Pregabalin to see if this works?

Yeaaah do not state anything about costs … I have already ripped several holes in that one because costs are not merely down to the drug alone. Not prescribing the correct drugs has far, far greater costs in the long run and that does not include anyone taking anyone else to court over the damage caused.

Oh and damage?

How about having twenty years of someone’s life destroyed that had the most serious knock on effect to a number of children having lives and stories worthy of the front pages of national newspapers?

Yeah … you had better dig around on my blog for that one … ooh if you can find it of course?!

One last thing to warn you of …

Do not me either patronizing nor condescending ass I have a tendency to not only react but explicitly point out why it is wrong to do that and in each case point out the fact that you organisations are not as bg, important as you think you are and nor possess the intelligence to act that way.

Just trying to avoid a repeat of wars that have occurred many times previous and happening right now.

Do not bother with the whole, ‘told in confidence‘ thing on the letter heads or envelopes either as it just wont wash.

I look forward to hearing from you with great interest.

Yours faithfully

Martin Haswell BSc